thisdarcy (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} thisdarcy) wrote,@ 2005-08-15 02:34:00 |
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moving on
thursday night/firday morning i was mugged. two guys grabbed me, shook me up, snatched my wallet and ran. i went into a total panic attack and i couldn't come out of it. the police were horrible. i was in a state of complete hysteria, unable to think or act straight, and they dropped me off a couple of blocks from where it happened and told me to get the bus home, that they weren't a taxi service. if i hadn't managed to call my parents, and in the state i was in i'm not sure how i did, i would have wound up sleeping on the street that night. they managed to talk me through everything, got me on my feet, walking to the bus stop, on the bus, and stayed with me for more than an hour until i got in the front door, by which time it was 8am and i was exausted.
the next day i was still exausted. sadie was very kind to me and explained that i am her family here and can call her any time i'm in trouble at any hour and she'll always find someone who can pick me up. we talked a lot about how the police handled me and she gave some advice on how to move forward. i took the night off work and stayed home. that very day we had the internet hooked up in the flat so i had that to occupy me, and a new disc of angel had arrived in the mail as well which was another welcome distraction.
the feeling of exaustion was still with me when i went in to work the following day. when i got there i found an envelope waiting for me. the night before someone backstage - as front of house i next to never see or speak to anyone on that side of the theatre - started a collection. it went through the crew, the band, the cast, box office and all the ushers in front of house where i work. there was over £130 in that envelope. i was so overcome i had to hide myself in the bathroom and cry. i told my manager i couldn't accept it but she insisted that everyone wanted to help. beyond the money, that gesture, from all those people, some of whom i've never even met, made such a difference for me. i'm really fortunate to have such good, caring people around me.
today is the first day that i don't feel like all i want to do is lie down - go figure its my day off so that's pretty much all i did. i'm really glad to have the internet at home now. it means i don't have to stay out late after work at night just to do some e-mails or write in this journal, which is something i really don't fancy doing anymore anyway. also, now that i've got a computer i can use - one that finally works properly, even if it is a mac - i can start loading up all the pictures i take and even start putting them up on here, sending them to friends, etc. so look forward to seeing some of that here soon.
look forward to a lot of things.
thursday night/firday morning i was mugged. two guys grabbed me, shook me up, snatched my wallet and ran. i went into a total panic attack and i couldn't come out of it. the police were horrible. i was in a state of complete hysteria, unable to think or act straight, and they dropped me off a couple of blocks from where it happened and told me to get the bus home, that they weren't a taxi service. if i hadn't managed to call my parents, and in the state i was in i'm not sure how i did, i would have wound up sleeping on the street that night. they managed to talk me through everything, got me on my feet, walking to the bus stop, on the bus, and stayed with me for more than an hour until i got in the front door, by which time it was 8am and i was exausted.
the next day i was still exausted. sadie was very kind to me and explained that i am her family here and can call her any time i'm in trouble at any hour and she'll always find someone who can pick me up. we talked a lot about how the police handled me and she gave some advice on how to move forward. i took the night off work and stayed home. that very day we had the internet hooked up in the flat so i had that to occupy me, and a new disc of angel had arrived in the mail as well which was another welcome distraction.
the feeling of exaustion was still with me when i went in to work the following day. when i got there i found an envelope waiting for me. the night before someone backstage - as front of house i next to never see or speak to anyone on that side of the theatre - started a collection. it went through the crew, the band, the cast, box office and all the ushers in front of house where i work. there was over £130 in that envelope. i was so overcome i had to hide myself in the bathroom and cry. i told my manager i couldn't accept it but she insisted that everyone wanted to help. beyond the money, that gesture, from all those people, some of whom i've never even met, made such a difference for me. i'm really fortunate to have such good, caring people around me.
today is the first day that i don't feel like all i want to do is lie down - go figure its my day off so that's pretty much all i did. i'm really glad to have the internet at home now. it means i don't have to stay out late after work at night just to do some e-mails or write in this journal, which is something i really don't fancy doing anymore anyway. also, now that i've got a computer i can use - one that finally works properly, even if it is a mac - i can start loading up all the pictures i take and even start putting them up on here, sending them to friends, etc. so look forward to seeing some of that here soon.
look forward to a lot of things.
